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#19 – and now for something completely different

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28th May 2020- Its been over a week since my last blog, not that I’ve lost interest but after re-reading my previous blogs I was starting to become unhappy in the direction I was heading. When I’m not blogging, Im resting, healing, meditating and working my way through my pile of self help books. Over the last few days the same message seemed to keep reappearing to me in various guises but the message in its simplest form was thus, ‘where the focus goes, the energy flows’.

The main reason I began my blog was to document my accident and my subsequent recovery, but I was starting to focus more on the negative aspects of my life and almost found myself enjoying wallowing in the all too familiar pit of despair and self pity. Just looking back at some of the tags I was using, depression, anxiety, pain and despair, whilst I cant deny I was feeling these emotions, If I allowed myself to continue to focus on them then that’s how I would continue to feel.

And so after a few days of reflection, I decided I needed a radical change. Its time to focus on the positive, and only the positive, of course I was still hurting mentally and physically but all the signs were pointing in one direction, just focus on the positive and that’s where my energy will flow. If all my energy is flowing to the positive aspects in my life then surely by the laws of physics there will be nothing left to feed my negativity! What a wonderful world its going to be!!!!!

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#14 -Post Op blues

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9th May 2020- What follows is just a mind dump! It was two days after my third and hopefully final surgery for a long time, I was laid on the sofa and hurting all over and truly feeling sorry for myself. I was scanning my previous blogs and trying to be positive and in part I was but the pain was fighting me and taking my energy, I just felt like a shadow of my former self. I fired up YouTube and audio injected an hour of the husky voiced Tony Robbins into my brain, I needed a little pick me up mentally. As the video ended I grabbed my note book and just began to scribble:-

I have the power to change, its already within in, I don’t need to acquire anything new, I just need to release the tiger in me!

I know theres something special in me

Ive tried for 40 years to change, searching for something, this is now the start of my new journey

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Im not afraid to be me anymore, this is who I am

My life has new meaning, I’m not afraid to make mistakes anymore, I accept im not perfect, I will never achieve perfection but I will try to be the best I can and influence everyone around me in a positive way!

I may have lost three fingers! but I’ve gain a whole new perspective on life!

Life is going to be harder because Im not running away from my problems anymore but it will be more rewarding, as I conquer each problem I will get stronger with each victory!

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